1. Don’t be afraid to gamble your emotions. It’s okay to feel again.
2. Free yourself. Explore.
3. Love is the language of the soul. No matter what being, love is universal.
4. Embrace our unique roots. Remember them as we embark on new journeys.
5. The human body is a remarkable machine. Celebrate its victories and flaws.
6. Art is not dead. In fact, it’s thriving more than ever, especially in Los Angeles.
7. Community can be a strong force. Don’t forget the power of sharing our blessings.
8. Even fire and ice can be together harmoniously.
9. People are in our lives for a reason. Some are only here for a season.
10. Adult Halloween is underrated. Let loose once in a while!
11. No matter what situation we’re in, give more than take.
12. It’s the inside riches, not outside ones, that produce true happiness.
Thank you, 2017.
We all experience it on both sides. With 2017 coming to a close, I definitely had my share of disappointments this year. But through this process, I’ve learned that I believe in second chances. Sometimes, we make mistakes from blind judgment and narrow mindedness. Our reactions and takeaways differ depending on the severity of consequences. Looking back, my greatest spurts of growth all happened upon making mistakes, especially ones involving disappointment.
No matter what the outcome was, I thank all who have come and gone this year. I thank you all for affecting my life, for better or worse. I’ve learned a lot and shall continue moving forward. If we both believe in second chances, then perhaps our lives will intertwine in the future.
Just like that, she retreats to her home realm
her figure in the ocean,
her spirit by the stars,
her remnants with the winds
I have expended much of myself without actively replenishing. My inner being is chaotically housing a frantic shell and crinkled soul. As much as I like to be with people, a time of solitude is necessary for me to develop some introspection and to fill myself back with self-love. So for now, I am unavailable.
It’s tough to remain positive and grateful in dark times, but thanks to the nature of this blog, I am forced to reflect on the good as well. Thanks for keeping me afloat, dear blog. Also, thanks, random photo grid of people in my camera roll, for helping me see my end goals and motivating me to push forward. Cheers to future simple words of gratitude.
Myself & Them
“Listen to us.
We know what is best for you.”
My soul sobs as my shell becomes
spellbound by the songs of Them.
Ugh… Forget about being heard,
I only want equilibrium for myself.
I was recently introduced to the dynamic and mesmerizing world of fine art, thanks to a new friend who is quite active within the Los Angeles art community. While supporting him at his solo art show at the Pacific Design Center in West Hollywood, I stumbled upon the art exhibit of Yu JinYoung, who’s sculptures represent the social disparities we are often exposed to throughout our lives. This series is called “Myself & Them.” The heavy feeling of responding to the outside world while taking care of our own inner world really resonated within me, as I questioned my life choices and potential trajectories, as well as my own influence throughout my social circle. Oh, the struggles of dealing with the words of others while treasuring the dreams of my inner being, and balancing life. Being human sure isn’t easy, but it’s a gift we must cherish and nurture to the best of our abilities.
Thanks, Yu JinYoung, for welcoming me into your exhibition and allowing me to bond with your amazing pieces. Through my experience with your art, I am learning how to love myself in this world full of social disparities that continue to challenge my personal values. Also, a thank you to my new friend, for introducing me to his fascinating world. Cheers.
It is commonly said that getting started is the hardest part.
So we bit the bullet and dove in. What’s next? Is it smooth sail from here? Hell no. The hardest part is getting started, but that doesn’t mean that things become easy once we begin. What we experience next is resistance. We’ve made changes, we’re trying something new. We’re leaving our comfort zone. The feelings of discomfort and anxiety are our ways of resisting the new obstacles in our lives. It doesn’t necessarily mean that we’re hurting ourselves. It’s just us experiencing growing pains.
Remember this: “one dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon. every search begins with beginner’s luck. and every search ends with the victor’s being severely tested… The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.”
How fitting it was to have read a very relevant passage of The Alchemist when I had these thoughts. I hope that this is a reminder to everyone that we shouldn’t give up too soon. So thank you, The Alchemist, for helping me push through my obstacles, and for helping me articulate my thoughts!
“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” – Hamlet, Shakespeare
This is one of my favorite quotes of all time. Our world is so complex, partially because it is created by our unique perceptions of realities. The concept of “good versus bad” was a recurring theme in conversations I’ve had throughout this year so far, but at the end of the day, who gets to determine what is good or bad on our behalf except for ourselves?
Let us respect individualism. There is no right or wrong way of living our lives; that is entirely up to us to perceive and control. The important thing is to live according to our personal values.
Let us pause and think for a moment before judging the server who has given us subpar service, or a person who is known for their promiscuous ways. Everyone has their own life stories. Let us utilize our thoughts to judge less, respect more. Recognize that even if someone is doing something we don’t necessarily agree with, it doesn’t mean that they’re doing something bad.
Today, I thank the people and interactions that have come and gone pertaining to this theme. These conversations have definitely challenged my way of thinking and life decisions. I hope to continue growing, and intend to hold this quote to heart when I hesitate with obstacles.
One last thing: I think I’m still a good girl.
Today, I attended a funeral, celebrated birthdays, and started to welcome the next zodiac year. Honoring the different milestones today brought me back to the much-needed view of the big picture. I’ve been overthinking about quite minuscule matters lately, so this day full of events was a reminder that we mustn’t always be caught in the details. Ironically, that’s losing focus.
If it won’t matter in a year, then there’s not much of a point in thinking so hard. Let the thoughts pass quickly, and move forward. If it will matter, then take action.
Today, I thank the coincidences and timing of events, for reminding me to not lose myself in the process of overthinking. Sometimes the answers are simply found at different focal lengths, so we must accommodate various focuses and look at all distances. Cheers.
As an aside, it was definitely odd experiencing such different atmospheres and crowds throughout the day. Also reminds me of how small I am, and how in the end, I don’t matter to the universe.
It may be a “new start” for many, but for me, it’s more like “continuing my journey.” 2016 is now in the past, but many takeaways won’t be easily forgotten. In 2017, I shall build off of 2016, and aim to further grow and understand myself, as well as contribute more to the world. I wish for everyone’s wishes to come true this year. Peace. Love. Good vibes. 🙏
Thanks for always being there for me, time. Cheers to an awesome year! 🎉
As I find some peaceful alone time amidst this bustling holiday, I spread cheer throughout cyberspace. Today, let us recognize our blessings and really live in the moment. Let us give the meaningful gift of paying attention in these rare times that we share with loved ones. Let us carry deeper conversations, and build deeper relationships.
Thank you 💝
I recently had a short staycation at my home turf in Los Angeles. While the change of pace and setting was awesome, I had trouble finding my center and inner peace throughout the adventures. I had lots of fun, but my mind was constantly running a mile a minute. Even when “peacefully” hiking, or enthusiastically driving through the streets, or taking in the beautiful sights, I struggled internally. Looking at the photos, I could see that there was something wrong.
Why? What happened to me? Did I fake death? Or did fate play me?
Actually, there is no excuse, and no use in blaming other factors. Whenever we face obstacles (especially the ones that we create for ourselves), over and/or under the surface, it’s all on ourselves. Being imperfect, there are times when we want to go wild and have fun; and at other times, we just want to hide in our blankets and chill (or sob) on our own. And that’s completely okay. It’s all a part of being… human.
Truth is, because I’ve been thinking so much, I already know the answers to my questions. But today, I choose to own up to myself and go through this by treading forward.
Today, I thank the people who listen to my shit whenever I feel a hurdle. Even though I am emotionally drained, I will always have love to go around. It may be the bane of my existence, but I am willing to go through shit if that means maintaining my love for the people I care about. Thank you so much, guys. I love you. ❤