Unavailable.

Just like that, she retreats to her home realm
her figure in the ocean,
her spirit by the stars,
her remnants with the winds

I have expended much of myself without actively replenishing. My inner being is chaotically housing a frantic shell and crinkled soul. As much as I like to be with people, a time of solitude is necessary for me to develop some introspection and to fill myself back with self-love. So for now, I am unavailable.

It’s tough to remain positive and grateful in dark times, but thanks to the nature of this blog, I am forced to reflect on the good as well. Thanks for keeping me afloat, dear blog. Also, thanks, random photo grid of people in my camera roll, for helping me see my end goals and motivating me to push forward. Cheers to future simple words of gratitude.

Love,
Connie

Dive In.

Dive in first, then figure things out along the way. If we spend forever trying to figure things out first, and then dive after, then we would never know what today brings, and lose too much precious time. Many lessons are taught through experience, so dive in. 

The words “dive in” was the message that summarized the two weeks of my life where my dad went to Vietnam. During that time, I ran around like a headless chicken, absorbing my dad’s work responsibilities and taking some of mine back from him while he left for Vietnam. All of a sudden, I was bombarded with a bottomless list of tasks. But I didn’t resist. In fact, I asked for this, and while I have felt fatigue at some point, I’m very happy because I learned so much in such a short period of time. I’m glad that I dove into my dad’s life as a small business owner.

It takes some motivation and bravery to dive in. Taking chances and change definitely comes with some anxiousness, so I’m proud of everyone who tries. No matter how big or how little, I encourage all to try someone new.

Thank you, Dad, for finally going on vacation and trusting me. [Thank you, guest speaker, for your motivational words and life stories.] Let’s dive in, everyone!