Cracked Mirror

You are the reflection of the darkest side of myself.

You pulled me into the black holes that were your soulless eyes. The only thing I could do was float around in search of your soul until I was released from your grasp. What a journey of high highs and low lows it was with you.

Thank you for bringing out a side of me that I usually like to keep under control, and giving me a safe space to shamelessly indulge. Please, take care. Please, don’t further ruin yourself. Please. I hope my prayers and gratitude for you will at least nudge you towards a better, brighter year ahead.

Unavailable.

Just like that, she retreats to her home realm
her figure in the ocean,
her spirit by the stars,
her remnants with the winds

I have expended much of myself without actively replenishing. My inner being is chaotically housing a frantic shell and crinkled soul. As much as I like to be with people, a time of solitude is necessary for me to develop some introspection and to fill myself back with self-love. So for now, I am unavailable.

It’s tough to remain positive and grateful in dark times, but thanks to the nature of this blog, I am forced to reflect on the good as well. Thanks for keeping me afloat, dear blog. Also, thanks, random photo grid of people in my camera roll, for helping me see my end goals and motivating me to push forward. Cheers to future simple words of gratitude.

Love,
Connie

How Do You “Unlove” Someone?

You don’t.

Don’t resist. Don’t force.
Simply wish them love and peace
Even from afar.

The way I’m interpreting this question is: How do I stop loving someone because they are no longer in my life and I need to move on? The piece above is my response.

I believe love takes on many different facets of emotions and actions, and its shape is individually unique in every relationship. Love is fluid, its dynamics can shift, and it isn’t mutually exclusive with anything. We can continue to love those from our past without hurting ourselves by wishing them love, backed by the acknowledgement that we are better off and happier without them. Therefore, I don’t believe in “unloving” someone.

Thanks, dear friend, for asking me this interesting question and for reminding me how far I’ve come. I hope my answer is helpful and brings in some new perspective to you. It is possible to move on while loving people of our past. With that said, you’ll get out of the rut you’re stuck in. You’ll be fine.

People Will Drift In & Out of Our Lives

Looking back at the past five months, I have met a good number of people. Most came and went.

I believe that the people we meet serve a purpose in our lives, and timing plays a big role. If it is meant to last, then it will. If not, then life goes on. In the end, we only have ourselves. It may sound a bit harsh, but we have no control over others, only ourselves. Instead of expecting something from others, we should try to understand them and why they are in our lives. If they are good to us and if possible, smile alongside them and appreciate them. Before, I was quite attached to the past, which kept me from accepting and truly living the present moment. I was resistant to change and unnecessary pressure was created. This hurt the person closest to me, but it hurt myself the most.

Life works in really interesting ways. I see the people in my life today and I never would have thought that things would turn out this way. It’s refreshing. Our life situations bring us together, to uplift each other and to keep each other in check during the struggles and growth we are experiencing individually, all while gaining new perspectives. For that, I am very thankful to them.

Thank you for coming into my life during a very delicate time. Your presence means a lot to me, more than you know. Even if we don’t communicate in the future, just know that you have positively impacted my life and I wish you the very best in your endeavors. You have my back. I love you all!

It’s important to let the people we appreciate know that we appreciate them. I’ve been pretty good at keeping up with that, so to those I’ve thanked recently in real life, you know who you are!! ❤